Deleted Facebook page, Cleaned up my DeviantART

It’s gonna be a huge post, click on read more if you’re interested, it’s about me, my future and my 4 years as Mackaged.

School started again and I don’t feel like posting new arts or other things since few months, really want to focus on myself and my studies. I’ll come again when I think it’s time. I want to start some new adventures soon. And I think of changing my name when I’ll be back, that’s the deal when you want to reset everything. I don’t want to delete my past and all the things I made but I just want to reboot myself and make new things you never seen from me. I don’t know when I’ll be back to DeviantART or others arts platforms, but all I can tell you right now is that it’s gonna be for a long time.

Don’t worry I don’t reset my friends at all haha, I'm still on Facebook for the friends who want to speak with me, don’t try to speak with me on Skype I’m barely connected, maybe 1-2 times per month, or you can just send me whatever you like on my Tumblr, I don't mind. I’m still on Tumblr but I don’t even have the time to see the full feed of all the people I follow. Since school started again, I woke up at 6am, I have to be at my school at 9am and leave at 5pm, but I stay there until 9pm for work more on my homeworks/drawings, and when I’m home I barely have the time to grab food that I fell asleep. I work harder than ever, really want to come back with brand new skills.

Maybe some of the friends I made, and maybe some of the people who followed me since my beginning as Mackaged 4 years ago, have seen that I changed "a bit" since the last year, and since I got this personal problem this year who killed me and my little self esteem pretty much because I'm sadly a "too emotional man". I became less confident with my arts and posted less things... Now I have some dreams and I really want to make them comes true and evolve them into bigger dreams. I can’t allow myself to fail one of them.

When I started as Mackaged, It was something really really magical to me. Always had this feeling to create artistic things since my childhood. So when I was 15 years, I  stepped as Mackaged, I learned Photoshop by myself, trying to copy style of guys I loved their works, some of them became my friends, such as SandwichDelta with his gorgeous grunge, MikoyaNx lord of the pen tool. Photoshop was a huge passion for me, then some of my friends, WMill and stuballinger-art, started to use more and more 3D on their works or by making incredible gif, so I wanted to learn C4D, I made brand new things and it allowed me to expand my creativity. After all those things, I wanted to draw, I always been a huge fan of Halo since the first time I played this serie, those games gave me the desire to work at Bungie, to work on video games as a concept artist. Always wanted to draw, but it was so hard, so I didn't tried at all, I didn't push myself, that’s why making wallpaper with vector, 3D, some effects and tiny photomanipulation was fine for me, it was easier than drawing something. So this last year, I started to draw a bit, now I fully at it. When I see works from the professionals, I really want to draw like them, but they have studied years and years, not me, so I always give up because I'm not patient and too lazy. I was happy with my old stuff, they were easy... Wait no, they wasn’t. When I started to make arts, I never though I’ll be good as I am now. And I worked 4 years as an hobby for earn those skills. So now I decided to not give up anymore, work harder and accept the fact that it will takes years to be good as I want to be. I’m now in a school for earn that diplome for work on video game company and learn this job, we learn 3DS Max there, now we draw on Photoshop and Illustrator, and we will learn Zbrush, Maya in the future if everything goes well (If I don’t get fired because I don’t have enough skills). Of course I can learn by myself but I found that school makes me less busy and working with friends with the same dreams motivate me a lot.

Thanks to all the friends I made since I came in the internet as Mackaged, thanks to all the people who helped me and encouraged me, and the people who liked, posted comments about my works, you helped me to go further away. Now, as I say, I want to work on my dream alone, and if everything goes well, come again with good news and new stuffs you will probably and I hope like.

Anyways, thanks A LOT for reading this, it’s important to me, I don’t know why but I really needed to write all this shit. And sorry for my bad English.